i am getting so tired of crying. and not sleeping. and not eating. and looking like i just came out of a concentration camp. and being a completely useless waste of skin to everyone around me. and being just the worst human being on the face of the planet. at Baylor, i still feel this, but at least there i have more than one person i tell these things to. everyone here just reminds me of why i'm a worthless, sorry, absolutely dysfunctional, fucked up, moronic, horrible, mean, cruel, uncaring, cowardly, lying, just downright awful son of a bitch who really has no reason to live, and would only benefit the earth by relieving it of his presence. sigh, only 32 more days...